I sold copies for the cost of a blank tape, and before long I’d received wheelbarrows full of mail. A woman whose daughter Rachel had died of a brain tumor told me the soothing melody brought back wonderful memories. A note arrived with a picture of a beaming autistic daughter hugging the tape to her chest. “Your music reached her,” the note read. Doctors and nurses wrote to say that the music calmed their patients. Brides chose it for their weddings. One letter even described how my music had turned sitting in a traffic jam into a delightful experience.
Within a couple of years I’d written enough songs to record an entire album. I went back to Nashville, hired Gary Prim again and we made the best recording we could. I ordered copies on cassette and compact disc.
Then I tried the big record stores. “We’ve never heard of you,” they said. “We can’t sell these.” I approached a few distributors. “You’re not a big enough name,” I was told.
One day I received a call from a friend of a friend. She owned a gift shop and had been playing my CD there. Shoppers kept asking her, “What’s that music? Can I buy it?” She wondered if I could sell her a few compact discs. Could I ever! To my amazement she called back four days later with the urgent message: “Send more.”
That started me marketing my music directly to gift shops. At the library I made photocopies of phone numbers for gift shops all over the country. Every Saturday I called store manager after store manager, talking until my voice became hoarse. I made so many calls that at the end of the month my phone bill arrived in a box.
Calls led to sales, and more sales made me think I should do another album. Before long the notion of working on music full-time took over my thoughts. But it seemed fool-hardy. Linda had recently given up her full-time job to oversee the care of her aging parents. We no longer had her income and benefits to depend on. And I was just a few years short of retirement myself. How could I give up a steady paycheck?
One night I prayed for guidance before going to sleep. The next morning I woke up to the strains of “Rachel’s Song” floating from the clock radio. Another time, while driving, I heard a deejay announce, “And now, here’s my favorite — ‘Rachel’s Song.”‘ I nearly drove off the road.
At times I doubted my own ability. To make a success of my music business I figured I’d have to do one or two albums every year. “That’s a lot of music,” I told Linda. “Can I write that much? Even if I can, will people like it?”
“You have to trust,” she said.
After agonizing over my decision for months, I was sitting in church one Sunday morning, remembering the mail we’d received that week from people all over the world. They didn’t know about the decision weighing on my mind, yet they addressed my concerns. One man wrote, “Your music is what God put you on this planet to do.”
I got to thinking about how the Bible talks about using your talents wisely. If you invest your talents they’ll multiply. If you don’t, they’ll be taken away. It’s that simple.
“Would I serve you better by writing and producing music?” I asked the Lord. The realization came to me in the stillness of the worship service. You must think I’m one of the densest Christians ever, Lord. More than 10,000 wonderful letters have come my way and it still took me all this time to get your message.
I resigned my position at AT&T. I haven’t had one split second of doubt since. Linda and I both work the business full-time. She helps me answer letters and fill orders.
Sometimes when the Lord inspires me with a new song, the melody is simple. It’s at those moments I understand more fully that God’s plan for our lives needn’t be complicated either. When He gives us a dream, He’ll show us how to make it come true.
Reprinted with permission from Guideposts Magazine.
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